I’m starting to lose my mind

Everything has been played over and over again in my head. I’m out of words and sentences to explain what I’m feeling now. It’s not enough.

There’s still something that has been bothering my mind. I know what it is, but I have the fear that if I write it down, or say it out loud, or tell someone about it, it’s not going to bring my sanity back and I’m gonna make a fool out of myself.

I’m tired of all of this shit. I just want to move the fuck on and deal with something, or someone else.

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